-------- A classmate said something to me that ended in:"...at least i have a life" I don't think there was any malice in her words, it was just something she said cause i annoyed her, but i don't think she knew the impact those words had on me. I hid my emotions, at the moment all i wanted to do was scream, "Do you honestly think I don't wish for those things?" I know it every second of everyday. My existence benefits no one and my death would be no one's loss. The only thing i have learnt to cope with this year is disappointment, i've tried for so many things and so many times i have failed, never have i succeeded once. I know i could've done things differently, given a second chance at this life i would do so many things differently but second chances don't exist, one strike and you're out, and it sucks to know where you went wrong at the same time knowing you can't do anything about it now. Waking up every morning wondering why i'm waking up when i have nothing to look forward to. My friends are a blessing to me, they make life for me bearable, that's how far down i am, that the best i can do is bearable and still for all the good they do me, they remind me the most of what i'm not. Everyone of them has something i do not, each one of them has succeeded somewhere where i've failed. I do have a life, i've just got nothing to show for it... | 9:06 PM |