-------- i'm really envious of people who can just be happy, people who can just be content with what they're given even if they're given shit. i've come to realise that i'm in quite a pathetic state, true there are others worse off, but worse off doesn't make me any better. all this while i've been living for the next good thing coming my way but i can't see many good things coming for me and it's getting harder and harder to live in the in between. people say we should face up to reality but what do we do when the realisation dawns upons us that reality just isn't working out. how do you live your life when you don't find your life worth living. i'm not saying that i want to die, suicide is something i will never consider, but i don't feel like i'm living either. | 11:25 PM |