-------- Promos are over now. Am i supposed to jump for joy and scream like everyone else did on friday? somehow i wasn't jumping and screaming with everyone. Weird that this is what everyone has been waiting for and yet i don't feel a thing now that it's over. I don't really get that happy feeling like i did last year after EOYs or after any other exam. It's like the weight was removed from my shoulders but only raised above me for a while, to give a little breathing room before it falls back down on me. I can't really feel happy because i know that when the dust settles, there's a chance that my world will collapse. If i had a chance to do re-do things i wouldn't have wasted another year.
But i can't help wondering...
Do i feel this lack of happiness because i know that, maybe, i like her and that she doesn't like me? That she probably dislikes me? If we never met would i be able to fell better? Would the weight still be hovering over me? Threatening to crush me once the cables snap? I don't know, the only thing i know is that i'm now in a low, dark place because of you.
All a man needs in this life is someone to love. If you can't give him that, give him something to hope for. If you can't give him that, give him something to do. ~I need something to do | 7:35 PM |