-------- Call me crazy, but I think part of the reason I've stopped trying is because of you. I know it may sound stupid to anyone else, but back then, in the beginning, there was always a part of me that thought, maybe if I were a better person, you'd eventually notice me. Part of the reason I strive to be better was so that I would eventually be someone people could be proud, someone that you could be proud off, if it ever came to that. There was always the notion in my head that if maybe I was someone better you'd maybe look at me like you do others, that maybe I could be seen in a different light. All I wanted, for so long, was to for you to just see me, and not just pass me by, to just have that littlest of significance in your life. And sad to say I probably achieved that, but for all the wrong reasons. I always wondered, if meeting me for just five minutes would make your day any better. Now I can guess that it doesn't, now I know that no matter how hard I try, no matter who I become, it won't make a difference because it won't amount to anything in your eyes. So...why try
And I die, one day at a time, cause I just can't seem to get you out of my mind. | 12:09 AM |