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These are my confessions,


I am so sick and tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. Tonight it's just all the same old feelings same old thoughts working their way into my head and I'm too tired to say it all again. Sick as a dog, I've really been letting myself go with everything in my life. Taking all the easy ways out and avoiding everything difficult. Tonight one of those moments I always wanted just happened to pass me by, but I couldn't grasp it, be it fucked up timing or bad luck, hell it could even be karma, but I couldn't hold on when I really wanted to. I don't know how many people actually read this, I don't know if you read this. But this is where I go to let the worst parts of me out, so that day to day, I can stay as "me", and just try to keep my sanity. So maybe I just realised that therein lies the problem, that around you I can't be myself, and all I'm trying to be is someone I'm not. And maybe, just maybe, if around you I can't be me then I shouldn't be around you at all. But maybe, I owe myself the benefit of the doubt, that maybe who I am isn't all that bad. I know the timing is all wrong, but I gotta talk to you, to give myself that one chance for me to be me around you and put it all on the line one more time. So that I can believe that there is some worth in being me. And maybe, you'll say yes.


maybe it's just me, but couldn't you believe
and maybe, two is better than one
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