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Trepidation would be a good word to describe how I feel. I keep trying to just push thoughts of her away because it's all that easier this way. But I know when that night comes and goes, I'm gonna look wish that I tried, and hope to hell it won't be the last time I ever see her. Chances of me walking away from this to a happy ending are slim and it's probably gonna hurt. But I think, when it's all over, the pain will be nothing compared to the regret I'll feel, if I walk away without even trying. The regret and the constant
wondering of what
could've been. So now, I've just gotta steel myself for what's to come. There's no point talking about it, no point asking how this should be done. When push comes to shove, let's just hope I can be the person I think I am, do things my way and leave with something and no regrets. And if things don't go my way, find the courage to just walk away.
Another night goes by without sleeping
Cause I know I won't wake up next to you
Another life goes by without dreaming
And I can't help but think that mine will too
I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand
Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you
The time is slow and I am sinking
Into a hole blackened with lies
And though I made it myself
You stand watching as my life passes me by
I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand
How much I adore you
I'll be there till the end
When everything falls down
Will you hold my hand
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